Tuesday, 27 December 2016

Poetry - If

I often return to this poem to reflect on what I try apsire to be.

If, by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you   
    Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,   
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, 
    But make allowance for their doubting too;   
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, 
    Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies, 
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating, 
    And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise: 

If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;   
    If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;   
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster 
    And treat those two impostors just the same;   
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken 
    Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, 
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, 
    And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools: 

If you can make one heap of all your winnings 
    And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, 
And lose, and start again at your beginnings 
    And never breathe a word about your loss; 
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew 
    To serve your turn long after they are gone,   
And so hold on when there is nothing in you 
    Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’ 

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,   
    Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch, 
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, 
    If all men count with you, but none too much; 
If you can fill the unforgiving minute 
    With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,   
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,   
    And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!

Monday, 26 December 2016

Humanity - for or against.....?

Compassion is one of my values, something that I hold dear. Humour is something that I value too..

Many years ago, when I was a children's nurse working in a high-dependency unit, I came across an article in a professional journal talking about 'black humour' as a release mechanism for stress in resuscitation teams, I remember thinking that it wasn't just us then...!

Last night, Christmas Day, me and the family where playing 'Cards Against Humanity', what a hoot!  I just wasn't actually looking forward to the game, I was tired (boo hoo), Tracey was her encouraging self and I relented. I was really glad. My favourite moment was when my wife played the 'a mime having a stroke' in response to my 'airport security prohibits.....'  black card. Clearly Tracey won that round, I couldn't actually get the words out, I was literally crying with laughter. Months ago, I couldn't get the words out for completely different reasons. Joking aside, it was a pretty good rehab opportunity, the speech component was great for linguistic dexterity and confidence building and manual dexterity from the card manipulation.

Adversity is a great way to feel human, and the emotions that come with it.

John Williams, a stand-up comedian, has a show in which he talks about his son's autism. When I heard an excerpt on on the radio this time last year, I was crying with sadness and joy in equal measure. There's a link to an 15 minute excerpt recorded for Radio 4's 'Four Thought' below.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b05sttjh

We all have the capability and the right to feel what we feel. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise. But you can choose how you feel.......

Saturday, 24 December 2016

The decision to resurrect the blog

As the post title suggests, I haven't been post for a while. The challenges of my rehab consumed all of my energies and I had no feedback or existential confirmation.

The more I increased my hours at work and the work goals gave me confidence and a sense of satisfaction, the blog sort of fell fallow.

Now, I'm entering into a new stage of my rehabilitation. I remember what the early days where like, I didn't know what to do. I knew what I wanted to achieve but not how or even if it was possible!! I wished somebody was available to give me direction or even coaching.

I didn't know if I was going to work again, train/fight again or paint/model again. Through determination I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I want to be that light for somebody else.

I'd really appreciate your thoughts or feedback.

Matt